Think, Think Again, Think Some More, and Be Sure!!! Don't Rush!

Think, Think Again, Think Some More, and Be Sure!!! Don't Rush!
Don`t rush yourself to love and to fall in love...
It might be infatuation only...
Or it could be your true love...
But always remember to think through about... What is love for you? What does love must be for you? Lastly, what does love must do for you or to you?


What is love? What does love must be? What does love must do?

1. Love must wait.
2. Love must be true.
3. Love must be sure that it is love.
4. Love must not to force.
5. Love must be mutual.
6. Love is only for the one.
7. Love must not hurt.
8. Love must protect.
9. Love must not threaten.
10. Love must be shared.
11. Love must not be envious.
12. Love must be a shelter.
13. Love must be a shield.
14. Love must be truthful.
15. Love must be faithful.
16. Love must be loyal.
17. Love must be honest.
18. Love must not lie.
19. Love must be forever.
20. Love must respect.
21. Love must be an inspiration.
22. Love must be colourful.
23. Love must not be blinded.
24. Love must be gentle.
25. Love must conquers all.
26. Love must sacrifice.
27. Love must be unique.
28. Love must be one.
29. Love must have space.
30. Love must know how to set you free.
31. Love must be just simply love.

I tell you... Love always depends on you, only to you and not to anyone else...
But most importantly, love is given to the one who needs it and values it... Love him or her but don't forget to love yourself and those people who you already have in your life before him or her exists in your life.

Love hurts though... especially if one sided.. next article for that. :)

Hard to Expect

Hard to Expect

It is so hard to expect that one day your crush will fall for you too. Correct? 

This month of February, I thought it was a good start. I thought I had the chance to be close with him. I thought we could have some good memories. I thought we could be friends at least but I was so wrong. 

January, the fresh Winter Semester started. Looking around, new people in your new classes. Fancy people, cool girls, nice guys, hot guys, and a new crush among all them. Time went on. Of course, I was that kind of person who wanted to do everything perfectly. Done with my assignments, good marks on all my quizzes, tests and any other graded papers. The typical me!

So how does this "hard to expect" happened?

Oh well, expect the unexpected. I had him in one of my classes. I found him so cute as I saw his face smiling and/or his serious face during class discussions but that was only for few weeks. And in this class, we had given a project, a team project. The professor picked the people in each team. There you go! He was on my team. I was so shy as sense thinking that Oh My God! My crush was on my team. What should I do then? How will I work then without him noticing that I had a crush on him. So I was trying to pretend to be so normal! So simple yet pretty every time. :) 

In this team project, we were asked to have a meeting outside class for "getting-to-know-me" session. We had to meet up just to have a simple talk with regards to ourselves. Monday was decided for that meet up. I was still sick that time but then still I went. Straightened my hair trying to be so energetic and trying to have an informative meeting. I thought it was a success. The team had a short yet a great talk I should say. I was able to talk nicely, trying to overcome my fear talking in front of my crush. I was just being casual!!! 

A night before our class,he messaged me about the reflection that we had to hand in as a team. He told me that he was willing to make one. Wow, he seemed to be nice and responsible. So that moment, I was expecting that he noticed me not just a team mate because he only sent me message. How did I know? Of course, I asked what the others said. He said he only message me. Well, I was assuming! Can't I? He was my crush, why not.

One class before the Valentines, I worked with him. I thought that was fun and still going to be a nice team for the rest of us. The following week was our test, no conversation only test. After that, I didn't see him. Now, I just found out when one of our team mates message me saying that she got a message from him dropping the course. Well, he supposed to be our team leader and now, he left us...

He left us for personal reasons.

I do understand it, but dropping your class knowing that you had accepted the responsibility of being the leader. It was so upsetting. I was so sad about him leaving the team. I won't be able to see him again in my class. So upset? Because I could only see him in that class. I won't see him around. :"(

I think I am the only one who was upset about it. Well, I think I had the only reason. He was the leader and I supposed to be his assistant. I could still remember how we decided to have a leader and how I became the assistant. It was so fun for me.

Now, I've decided to continue the team project without him and I wanted to make this team project one of the bests.

He may not know that in a short period of time, I came to like him but I can still like someone else. Just that I should never start assuming and expecting.

Assuming and expecting can just lead me into a great disappointments. Same goes for my readers!!! Careful! It hurts still.

~true to life story and feelings~

1998-2011, Tula para sa 3 Pangulo ng Pilipinas

1998-2011, Tula para sa 3 Pangulo ng Pilipinas

Mula ika-30 ng hunyo,1998 hanggang ika-20 ng enero,

   2001

Joseph Ejercito Estrada, ang pangulong tumayo.

Sa Lungsod ng San Juan bilang mayor, unang namuno

“Erap para sa mahirap” ang sa baya’y pangako,

Kaya masa sa kanya ay nagtiwala at siyang binoto

Naging Pangulong tunay sa bayan,

Nais na ang paghihirap ng baya’y maibsan,

Di pagkakaunawaan sa kapwa Pilipinong Muslim nais

   ding wakasan, ugnaya’y nais higpitan.

Adhikain ding krimen ay mabasan, nahirapang nga lang

   masolusyunan.

Di nagtagal siya ay naghusgahan ng salang pagnanakaw

   sa kaban ng bayan.

Kanyang nanunungkulan ay winakasan,

Sa bahay niya ay ang kinahantungan.

Sa pagkapangulo ay hinalinhinan.

Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo, anak ng dating butihing Pangulong Diosdado Macapagal, 

    ang pumalit sa Erap ng Bayan.

Taong 2001, sinimulan niya ang panunungkulan

   at tumagal ng siyam na taong naglilingkod sa bayan.

Mga pangakong hindi naisakatuparan ng mahusay,

   naghahanap ang mga mamamayan ng kasagutan.

Mga nagawa niya ay nakatulong din sa ekonomiya ng

   bayan,

Di nga lang alintana dahil sa kasalatan sa maraming

   bagay.

ZTE scandal ang napag-usapan ng matagal at ang HELLO

  GARCI napag-usapan.

Ang bayan ay naitriga ng tunay…

Ika-30 ng hunyo,2010 natapos ang panunungkulan,

Ang bayan naman ngayon ay humihingi ng katarungan

    sa mga bagay na siya ay pinaratangan.

Mga pagkakasalang nais mapagbayaran, at ang mga

    nagawang bagay para sa baya’y natabunan.

Iyan ang Pilipinas, matapos niyang pamunuan.

Pangulong Benigno Simeon Aquino III, PNOY sa

   pagkakakilala ng buong sambayanan,

Isinisigaw ng bayan, pagbabago ang iyong ibigay.

Sa kasalukuyan siya ang nanunungkulan, katuwiran ang

    nais iabot sa mga mamamayan.

2010 ng nagsimula, ngayon 2011 ay may naipakita ng

    nagagawa.

Hindi sukat akalain “wangwang” na pahirap ng bayan

Ay siyang malaking pangarap niyang wakasan.

Hiling niya rin sa bayan, na siya ay samahan

Sa pagsagot sa mga problemang naiwan na buong

   bayan ang may pasan-pasan.

Para sa matuwid na daan ating sabay-sabay na samahan si Pangulong Noynoy na nakikipaglaban.

Kabataan tayo ng bayan, hinihiling ang maunlad na kalayaan,

At kagalingan sa buong mundong kinatitirikan

Demokrasya buong-buo sana ngayon ay matikman….

An Ill-Father, a Life-or-Death Decision

An Ill-Father, a Life-or-Death Decision

Reflection

I can relate with this essay because making a decision between life-or-death is a difficult reality that we are to face when the time comes. This also tells me about how a family member would make a tough decision for the life of their love one. This fact makes me puzzle if I am in the position to decide upon the life of any in my family member, as to how I can go about it and how I can stand for my decision whether it is right or wrong. 

The essay revolved around on the cold January night, when the daughter rushed up to the hospital because of her father, who was very ill and very weak. The doctors confronted her about her father’s condition that his heart was weak, his kidneys were failing and his lungs were filling with fluid. Then, the doctors came to the point where she was asked about her father’s living will and for her to make decisions upon her father’s life. During this point, she made measurements towards her own life that she sacrificed many things for her father but she suddenly remembered that once her father said to her that everything possible be done. So, she asked her father if he still want to be intubated. Unexpectedly, her father, who was very weak, nodded. Though, six months later her father died due to heart failure. In her thought, her father’s decision was a mistake and she as a daughter had to support his father no matter how hard it would be. 

As I was reading the essay, I got sad about her father’s condition and I was also confused of what she will decide towards her father’s life. The part where she thought about all her sacrifices made me think that if I were in her part will I make that the same thinking, counting things that I did for my father or any of my family members. But all of a sudden when she thought of her father’s words, she asked him and her father answered her, I felt something about her love and sympathy for her father’s desire to do things possible that can help him. Following her father’s will even she thought that it was hard but she still considered it. The innovation came in this point to reach her father’s will but at the end it resulted to be in retreatism state because her father died. Truly, it is heartbreaking but it is the reality we are to face. 

This situation also helped me to make my own measures about life and death. As I said, death is a reality we are to face when the time comes like the death of someone we love or even our own death. No matter how hard it would be for someone like me who has a very strong family ties and give big importance in life, I need to prepare myself whenever it comes. This also tells me that I must be strong, calm and clear especially in this circumstance. Indeed, it is need to accept what things will result into. 

“There is no doubt that it is around the family and the home that all the greatest virtues, the most dominating virtues of human society, are created, strengthened and maintained” (William Churchill). 

The first primary group we have is our family. In my family I can say it is where I first learned how to value people, how to give empathy to other people in our place. It is where I first learned simple norms and appreciate others culture. I say “my individual personality” is first shaped through my family’s guidance. In connection to the essay, this why I value my family because they are the start of my life before I learned various things and knew how to socialite and have been involved to many social institutions to learn new things and develop myself more. Developing myself is preparing me in facing new beginnings and giving ends to it. From what I read, I can say that she followed her father’s will because that is the way how she was built up and she also hoped to add his father’s life. 

Other things may change us, but we start and end with family. (Anthony Brandt) 

My Declaration of Self-Esteem by Virginia Satir

My Declaration of Self-Esteem by Virginia Satir 

Do I know myself? Do I accept myself as a whole? Can I stand for myself and be responsible in everything I do? These are the questions I have while and after reading the entire poem. Knowing and accepting her whole being is her main focus as she entitled it “My Declaration of Self-Esteem”. 

As I said, I have questions in my mind that puzzles me while reading the poem so I came to think about myself, how I look upon myself in school, in our home, and anywhere in the community. I do wonder if I am really aware that everything I am is because of my very own choice and my very own decisions. I also thought about my successes and failures, that they were made and were chosen by me. I thought about my family, my friends, my classmates, if am I able to work and be with them as myself - the real me, because still now I am confuse of what I should be, what to believe and what to choose. I am still looking forward as to what I may choose to be each day. Like, I am in my own world of fantasies, dreams, hopes, and fears but still I’m in where I cannot find myself yet and I am trying to know when to see the whole me. 

But when I looked back and remember what I have done alone, I am happy that even though I am not decided yet, I was able to do things which were good and a bit great. And to think of, I did things which were very unexpected that in matter of second like, I dreamed to be someone with position in my former school, in a shy manner I started then I end up seeing myself doing so many things for I have achieved something all alone from my dreams. 

So now, I am starting to think of how I am going to pass this new challenge of life as a college student with that “enthusiasm”. Like what she said, “I own me, and therefore I can engineer me”. And I can say, “ I am already a leader, a teacher, an engineer because I am all to myself”.

Sanctum

Sanctum

Film Analysis

The film is an Australian 3D adventure drama. It is entitled “Sanctum” directed by Alister Grierson and co-produced by the famous James Cameron. The main casts of the film that gave a lot of thrills, adventure and drama are Richard Roxburgh as Frank McGuire, Ioan Gruffud as Carl Hurley, Rhys Wakefield as Josh McGuire, Alice Parkinson as Victoria, Daniel Wylie as George and Cramer Cain as Luko. They completed the film giving life to its concept of a thrilling underwater cave adventure. 

The film started showing the different side of the world. This was by beginning the film in the market side of their native place and there showing that they know how to trade and how trading a part of their economy and culture. Along their way, they passed through a number of different races, the primary group of people living in Papua New Guinea, their stereotypes and undeniably their different social status can be observed. 

Josh, son of Frank who is a master diver, Carl, financer, and Victoria, Carl’s girlfriend, went down the cave to join the underwater cave exploration of their team and be a part of the discovery of the Esa’ala Cave as one of the greatest nature’s wonder. Inside the cave, Judes, Frank’s co-diver, died because of an accident while they were in section of the cave known as the “Devil’s Restriction”. The incident caused conflict between Frank and Josh, and also between his comrades. His son decided to go out of their camp but he discovered that their communications with the surface broke down, so he decided to go back and save his only family, his father Frank and his friends. Due to the storm, they were trapped down the cave and the water level arose quickly so the group in Frank’s authority went deep inside the cave to find another exit route. At their expedition inside the cave on finding the way out, cooperation rather than competition was really a need in order to survive the challenges they were in to. George, Frank’s long team mate, who underwent the cycle of retreatism, decided to die because he was sick and will be a burden of their group if he insisted to go on. Then after him, Victoria was accidentally caught by the pulley and fell down to death. Ironically, his boyfriend Frank seemed to form a rebellion against Frank so he decided to left Frank and Josh on their way. 

Frank died because of Carl, who forgot that it was their utang-na-loob to Frank that they reached that point alive. Carl, out of shame, went on by himself and alone he met his demise. Josh, Frank’s son, continued his journey out of the cave no matter sad he was because of his father’s and friends’ death. 

The actors played their roles effectively that they even showed how great imitation they applied just to make it look realistic. The empathy and sentiments they had can also be seen and be felt. From Richard Roxburgh as Frank McGuire, you could really see his strength in all of his moves. Ioan Gruffud as Carl Hurley, if you were to look back on him in the film, he really showed the extreme pain of losing someone in that very miserable way. Rhys Wakefield as Josh McGuire, undeniably he illustrated the usual attitude of an adolescent reacting on those heavy experiences. We can actually say that being the tenth-highest-grossing Australian film at the international box office is really worth it. 

The screenplay of the movie was done by John Garvin and Andrew Wight, the music was by David Hirschfelder, Jules O’ Loughlin for the cinematography and Mark Warner for the editing. That group of professionals gave a lot of help making the film look more natural and environmental. The music played helped a lot in giving the film life and excitement about what is in and going on in the film. The techniques they’d used were very efficient in the sense that the viewers can feel its essence. 

With the films overall presentation, I can say that many people should also watch it because it shows a lot of traits that one should develop and understand as he is living with his life. Knowing the fact that there are really great possibilities of undergoing such very big problems and that you really need to have a wide clear mind to make right decisions and know how to take the risks. This film will nurture every human group in the society that in life we need to make crucial decisions and fill the other’s needs… 

“Never give up, no matter what happens. You never give up”.~Frank

Pay it Forward

Pay it forward

“There are no strangers… Only friends you haven’t met yet!”  By Glenn Bottomly

            After knowing this quotation, I wondered if there are really no strangers, but friends who haven’t met yet. I am still wondering if it is true, but as of now I can say that I believe it because before having a friend we actually meet them and start getting to know each other. After that process, you become friends and as you spend time with each other your relationship is going deeper or you may find someone’s unwanted behavior and that you are to think whether to be a good friend- accept him or a bad friend- turn your back on him.

            “Time in this life is so short. If…I am committed more than ever to reach out in this life and experience what is really important: people. Work will always pile up. E-Mails will always keep coming. Telemarketers will always keep calling. Home repairs will always keep nagging. But, people are irreplaceable.” (Prime Times, Glenn Bottomly, April 2011)

            I got this passage in the internet when I was searching about the first quoted line. After reading its first sentence-“time in this life is so short”, I got automatically interested with this passage. This has a connection with our task (pay it forward). For me, these lines tell us how important people are in this world, how we should work with others, how we can spend our very precious time to our beloved ones and lastly, how we can share our lives to others whom we often referred as strangers.

            In my early childhood life, I can say that I don’t care about the others, all I know is myself, my family, my friends and all of my wants. But as I grew up, I slowly changed my perspective. Now, I want to see what other people do, to hear what they want to say, what they want to happen or to achieve, and to feel what they have experienced in this dangerous and yet marvelous life.

            Paying it forward, a situation I once saw at an early age. My grandmother had her store, she was there marketing her products when a vendor of huge jar- person who brings his jar places to places hoping that someone may buy it, passed by and asked her if he could just trade it for a small amount and a big can of sardines. He added that he wanted to trade it because he worried about his co-vendors waiting in their service and that they were not yet eating lunch in that late afternoon. Out of pity, my grandmother asked the vendor to sit and wait for her. She offered a glass of water and biscuits, she said to the man to wait for a moment. After waiting, a surprise for the vendor my grandmother gave him a plastic which contained plastic of rice, cans of sardines and bottles of water. Happily, my grandmother said to him that the jar seemed to cost higher, so giving those food was a fair exchange. The vendor was very happy and before leaving he said too many thank you to my grandmother for she was also generous and so helpful. That was why I do idolize my grandmother for being so nice to everyone in anytime. And for all of the people around, who taught me the word of being good, helpful, generous and God-fearing- my grandmother did not just teach me about it but also showed it to me with uttering any word, I simply noticed it and felt happiness from it.

            So wanting to help others is also what I want to do. But the newest and the rarest thing that I did was to pay the ride of an old man. Along my way home, walking to the terminal of the tricycles, there was an old man behind me. I knew that he also went there for a ride and that there was only one tricycle, so one should go first and the other should wait. I rode the tricycle first, looking to him while he was talking to the driver about the next ride, I said “Lolo, sakay na din po kayo”. I was so nervous when I said those words. And I also heard the driver said that this young lady always ride the tricycle alone and don’t let others sit beside her. I just thought, sometimes we need to make changes in what we usually do. When we were to go down the tricycle, I said, “ito na po yung bayad…Lolo, bayad na po!”. We walked together in our street and then he said, “thank you!, san ka nag-aaral?”. I said, “sa Miriam College po”. And that was how my time helping him ended.

            In addition to my deed, along Tumana, where my best friend and I were walking, we saw an old lady “taong grasa”. My friend said that she wanted to give the old lady food but she has none, and then I remembered that I had my biscuits in my bag so I immediately get it and gave it to my friend so that she can personally give it to the lady. My friend returned to me and she looked upset. I asked her why and she said that the old lady seemed not to like food but money. I just told her that you gave her food because you think it was what she need but if she didn’t like it, it is not our lost but hers, because food is grace, we need to love it and be thankful for it.

            That situation makes me think, why sometimes helping others and being rejected can make you feel sad. It is maybe because all you want is to help. Sometimes, we also need not just to look but also to hear and to feel the things that really matters.

            I think we should all find courage to help others even they are just strangers because there is still a possibility that you will meet that person again and in unexpected time he’ll give his thanks back to you.

            “Good things happen when you meet strangers” By Yo-yo ma.